long distance relationship

A

can i really commit?
he's too far away...Egypt
he has long way to go
do i have the will to wait?

hmm..nak contact pun susah..dah la jarang balik Malaysia
sayang itu ada..
cinta??tak tahu nak jawab macam mana..

humane kah?

i just watched a vid in kak Az's blog about a tiger being abused in A Famosa, Melaka...the tiger looks like it has been shot so that it wont attack the visitors who wanted to take pic with it..

HUMAN.E

main blog tag 2

1. Go to your photo files, select the 8th photo folder.

Folder's name is friends

2. Select the 8th photo in that folder.

photo's name is budak skku

3. Post that photo along with the story behind it.

budak kelas sekolah rendah..sekolah kebangsaan kompleks uda,johor bahru...budak2 lelaki memang nakal..asyik nak main je..pic ni time party kelas darjah 6.

4. Then challenge 8 friends to do the same.

saya tag sesiapa yang rasa nak post entry ni..

main blog tag

1.copy award ini kat blog korang



2.buat ucapan korang kepada pemberi award dan perasaan korang

ambil dari kedai kopi blog bokhari (dah mintak izin da..)

3. jawab soalan soalan tag ni

apa yang sedang bermain di fikiran anda sekarang ?
ade byk kekesalan tp balance dgn kebahagiaan...tp,lebih mengutamakn bahagia yg dialami..

*apakah nama samaran korang ?
ji dan jiji (mama pggl kakak kat rumah)

*nyatakan 3 orang yang anda sayang
abah,mama,diri sendiri

*panggilan untuk si dia
dear and baby (di mana dia prince charming saya?)

*hadiah yang korang impikan dari seseorang yang istimewa
kasih sayang tulus ikhlas dan kejujuran

*blog mana yang korang suka visit dan yang boleh aku follow jugak
XiaXue sbb blog yg best dibaca bila bosan sgt2

heart broken

i am now...

because...

sorry

i just wanted to say...



i didnt mean to be so angry with you but you are impossible!
you hurt me too much but i still sayang you.

the lovehate game...when its gonna end?

gofugyourself

i just had my shower..waiting for abah to come home with my bus ticket to shah alam tomorrow.im getting ready to go shopping for some stuff to bring to shah alam..while waiting for abah to come home,laying on my bed..ive been thinking of this one particular person who ive been involve with for some time.he is a friend of my good friend's friend (confusing huh?)

i was hanging out last nite and ann told me that he buzz her via facebook chat..asking about me and stuff..i was mad as hell.he said he wasnt interested to continue this love game and whats he doing go around messaging my friend for??i text him and he replied.."u tny ann i chat apa dgn dia.."i know u were asking my bestfriend to "look after" me and telling her it is hard to understand as im so "moody and emo" sometimes..GO ASK YOURSELF WHY IM ACTING LIKE THAT WITH YOU BEFORE YOU STARTED ASKING PEOPLE AROUND ABOUT ME!
seriously ive never been like that before with anyone ok??i got this one good friend,wan whom everytime we met for a drink or just hanging out...he said that i buat muka..i told him a thousand times that i rarely get excited over something and i dont easily feel enthusiastic about something..so my face is just blank.its not that im sombong or something..thats it.it doesnt meant that im moody.ppl expect others to be pleasant and smile everytime..of course i did smile when necessary..these days,u cant just go around smiling at ppl..they're think u're crazy or they think that u're laughing at them or they think they have something on their face and they think that u're think its funny..

when im angry..i started blaberring.sudah....!

to whom it may concern..i x tau tujuan u sebenar..and i dont think i trust u anymore.

poor baby car..

one of the photo that i decided to upload in facebook.this is the time when the car broke down (merajuk la pulak baby car ni..).we were at PLUS waiting for the car to cool down.everybody was sweating even tho it was at nite.on that day, Feb 8th..we decided to have fun time karaokaying at greenbox,JJ bukit tinggi..since it was a day before my birthday,so they come up with a surprise party for me at that time.although we faced some difficulties on the journey but it was worth it.

Saiful Hifzudeen: sauna!!! hahahaha
Jihan Amalinna: for u only..us are just cool..
Saiful Hifzudeen: bcuz u r just ignoring the hardship situation
Jihan Amalinna: no..im embracing it.thats y im cool with it.poor car meragam tho.
Saiful Hifzudeen: mmg la cool...u just sit back n relax..
Jihan Amalinna: haha..u're the guy kn..so play the good knight in shining armour come to the rescue..
Saiful Hifzudeen: i am..am i
Jihan Amalinna: u r (<< nk ambil hati je k?) Saiful Hifzudeen: mine is mine, u cant tak mine! u kan dah ada hati????
Ida Liyana: uit2!!!ske pic2 ni=))kenangan terindah..hehe,time di mane sepul berpeluh2 1 badan..ngeh~~=p
Jihan Amalinna: saif,wat??excuse me...i didnt mean that!ida,its funny the way u call him sepul..lol
Ida Liyana: i loike too..hehe=))da lame pggil die sepul..saiful x mara kn??=p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

p/s: the pics were taken on Feb 8th,a day before my actual birthday

persona for firefox

u guys must have heard of firefox right?well..if u still dont know what a firefox is,lemme briefly explain what i know...its sorta similar to IE (internet explorer),an open source web browser.i dont know much about it but i know how it works.i prefer to use firefox than IE cuz its faster (no offense) but sometimes i use IE too for facebooking,downloading past year exams questions (cuz only IE support it) and stuff.

i knew that now surfer can download tons of themes which is called firefox persona and i decided to get some today cuz the internet is much faster at home and i can easily download stuff.the internet speed at the house that i rent in shah alam is major slowmo and i dont even bother.like a simple thing which take a minute or two to download become forever to be finished which is major total annoying.enough of that,today i got some cool themes which i really love (make me love firefox even more cuz its like playing dress up)..

the above persona is japanese tattoo..im currently using two little bird
(click the link>>) FIREFOX PERSONA

fragile heart of mine

im having a rather difficult time right now..i dont know what i want.i feel that im not in control of myself anymore..ive become more fragile and i just let my guard down.you can say that im depressed.i easily cried out of regrets.im not who i used to be.sometimes i dont know if this is the real me.it comes to the point where i cant accept what i did and what ive become,equals to not accepting myself.i refuse to talk about this to friends anymore because i just dont think they can help.i know they will be a very good listener,who will tell me to be patient and etc..but ive had enough of that..i need someone who can change that,not just words.

i have two bestfriends/sisters who i know will be there for me through thick and thin.but i refuse to see them because i just want to stay at home..because i feel comfortable here.one of them didnt even know that ive come home..the other one need me because she's having a difficult time too with a guy but im not ready to be a good listener.how can i be there for her when im as weak as her.

if before this i will talk to someone about my problems,i want a new approach..JUST IGNORE and maybe soon the probs will go away..

second day of my short semester break

today..im gonna play mypetsaloon and beat all levels and...

watch the time traveller's wife

growing up...it's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most
Just got to keep going

(click on the photo to enlarge)

if only u never say "entah" or "tak tahu" PART II

entah by afgan

kutahu, kau selingkuh
kau duakan cintaku yang tulus
kau tahu, diriku
tak pernah berpaling dari dirimu
tega nya kau dustai semua
janji kita berdua

Entah masih kah ada cinta dihatiku
untuk mu
entah kapan kah ku dapat membuka hati ini, untuk mu

tak pernah ku bayangkan
cerita kita berakhir begini
tega nya kau dustai semua
janji kita berdua

if only u never say "entah" or "tak tahu" PART I

when i first met u...

i hate you.its true.i hate ur guts!our first encounter was ugly and that nite i hope i will never see you ever again.

but then...

u did something that makes my heart melt..i completely get over the first meeting.

sometimes...

u make me so angry,ugly words come out from my mouth.i never been so angry at someone before in my whole life.i never been this way in my past relationships..ive never been so "garang" before.maybe BECAUSE..im very protective of myself and ive been hurt countless time and since my last relationship which is 4 years ago,i vow not to let another hurt me so much..that time i think revenge will be sweet if i get hurt.

u also..

make me feel sad at times...these eyes kept getting wet whenever we fight and whenever u show ur ignorance...i kills me inside.thats why i never wanted to see u again and i keep repeating it whenever i feel angry because i dont want to get "killed".

ive given..

ourselves some time to make things work,but all i can see my hard works (without yours) go down the drains..believe me,ive given up countless time but then again i kept looking back n give us chances.

and now..

im tired of waiting for u to make up ur mind.

maybe..

when im out of ur life..u will appreciate me more.

at that time..

it'll all be too late for u.

a day since my last paper

got nothing to do at home except laze around watching tv.today i watched:

percy jackson,curse of the golden flower,the banquet,arthur and the invisible,alvin and the chipmunk

its great having a dad who shares the same past time as u..watching movie that is.prefer movie than drama..hate it when it says "to be continued..."

recent movies

as a hardcore movie goer or someone who really loves to watch movie especially the one action packed and got all the cool effects..recent movies that i watched are:


i just love seeing sam worthington as perseus.you can also see him in avatar and terminator salvation..not forgetting the leading lady,gemma artenton who plays io.


gemma has a unique, beautiful face (i agree)..
her other movies are james bond:quantum of solace and prince of persia:the sands of time which i cant wait to watch it,badly!

and the most recent movies i watched is:



every scene is awesome!two thumbs up.

the end of semester

finally,it has come to the end of my second last term in UiTM..the last semester getting nearer.i felt so scared yet cant wait to finally get over with my studies.but a part of me,deep down..i dont want this to over.ive been a student since im 5,now at 23..it has been 19 years and i dont feel like letting go what ive become so familiar off.working life is a new thing that im not ready to venture into but kinda cant wait to get started.looks like im scared to take the next step..my degree year,only one year to go..