ultimate question of the year answered without realize

I’ve been lazing around the house for quite some time just waiting to get back for the new term. Apart from lazing, I also did some thinking. Thinking about the future for I have only about half a year to finish my degree, half a year for industrial training and then if Allah swt willing I would finish my degree next year on April. Last weekend I was doing some bonding girl time with my bestfriend ann. We were at McDonalds and she popped one lethal question, the question that I have been dreading slash avoiding for quite some time this year.

What are your plans for the future?

In other words, what she really meant is what I am going to do after I have finish with my studies. I stutter for awhile, giving a long opening speech which I was really buy myself some time looking for the appropriate words so that I’d looked smart. You see, with ann, she got this thing that she is a keep-moving-forward kind of person. She plans things although she didn’t realize she was doing it but she did and 99% she sticks with her plans but with add-ons crazy fun things. Getting back to her question, I don’t really know what to say. She asked about our plans getting a place somewhere in KL and do job-hunting together. She has friends offering a place in Ampang and Kampung Baru. We did plan to live together someday, but I don’t really want to start a life in KL. I prefer JB. The idea was left hanging for awhile until we really finish our studies. Later, while munching on fries, I said to her, “ann, you know that I want to take a level up with my studies after I finish with my degree. You know, unlike you and farah (my other best friend forever), im not lucky in the love department. Therefore, I was thinking, after my degree’s over, i would work for a year and see if there’s love within that one year. If there is none, I would pursue my studies and if there is love, I would not continue studying”. After saying those words, I just realize I have the answer for that ultimate question. But then again, plans might change. Who knows right?

blogger award female

blog tag from kak az, i havent done this in awhile...i enjoy doing blog tag.

1. Are you happy now?
contented

2. Your favorite colour(s).
red

3. Have you received tag(s) before?
yes i have

4. Things that can make you happy.
hugs and kisses,jokes

5. Name nine people that you wanna tag. Do tell them in order to get the respond.
ann,hani,halle,lia,afya,sheera and those who read this and if u did this tag tell me,i want to read yours

6. Are you happy with what you've now?
thankful for what i have now...but i would like to have more and willing to sacrifice and work hard for them

7. Describe something about people that you've tag.
ann is my bestfriend forever,hani is my good friend when i did my diploma in dungun,halle is my exschool mate and now she is dungun,lia and afya are my classmates and sheera is my funky housemate who own abu which is an adorable cat which i syg so much!

drag miss ann out to mall eventhough she's grounded...

grab a bite at MickeyD and karaokaying a bit.

true reason is,exchange juicy stories.

fun time with my BFF...

was it my fault?

salah ke saya?

salah ke bila saya tanya

apa kedudukan saya di hati awak?

susah sangat ke nak jawab bila saya tanya

awak anggap saya sebagai apa?

pernah tak awak fikir kenapa saya tanya soalan2 yang awak rasa malas sangat nak jawab ni?

mestila...awak pernah fikir,mungkin awak fikir yang saya ni menjengkelkan sebab selalu tanya soalan2 bodo ni kan??

tapi,

awak pernah terfikir tak saya tanya soalan2 bodo bagi awak ni sebab saya tak yakin awak betul2 sayang saya sepertimana saya sayang awak sebab awak tak pernah beritahu apa yang awak rasa terhadap saya...

saya tanya sebab nak kepastian yang awak betul2 sayang saya,nak meyakinkan diri yang saya tak tersilap pilih awak

jawabla ya atau tidak,tak perlu buat karangan pun nak balas soalan pendek saya ni...

kalau jawapan awak ya,buktikan

kalau jawapan awak tidak,kenapa awak masih cari saya?

SILA JAWAB

50 things you do when you are in love

What is love? Those who don't like it call it responsibility. Those who play with it call it a game. Those who don't have it call it a dream. Those who understand it call it destiny.

50 things you do when you are in love (from personal experience ^_^):

1. you wanna cook for that person

2. you wanna spend time together

3. you feel nervous when you’re meeting him/her

4. you don’t mind if he accidentally fart or burp

5. you think about him everyday especially when u about to sleep or when u wake up

6. you dedicate songs to him

7. you want to see him everyday

8. his breath smells like roses even if it stinks

9. you wanna do crazy unthinkable things for him

10. you notice everything about him

11. you get excited when he text or call you

12. when that person speak, you look at him without blinking

13. you get jealous easily

14. you put special ringtone especially for him

15. you start liking everything he likes

16. you are not ashamed of crying in front of him

17. you made poem about him

18. you share secrets together

19. you wrote about thim a lot

20. you feel empty if he doesnt call/text/speak

21. you have to meet that person everyday or else you feel like dying

22. you get excited and you dress up extra fine when u are meeting him

23. he meant a lot to you and become one of the most important people in your life

24. you think of the memories whether its bad or good with him

25. you wrote his name in every style whenever you see a blank paper

26. you smile when you think about him

27. you wanna know everything about him

28. he looked handsome even if he is in a mess!

29. you compliment him a lot

30. suddenly the characteristics of your dream guy changed, and every characteristic you want is on him

31. you really have good times and fun with that him

32. you care about him a lot

33. you got lost in his eyes easily

34. you easily melt when he compliments you

35. you would support him in any possible way

36. you become his personal cheerleader

37. you dont get bored looking at pictures of him

38. sometimes you use silly pick up lines to get his attention

39. you treasure every moment together

40. you wanna learn new things to impress him

41. you dont look at other guys

42. you flirt with him a lot

43. you daydream about him a lot

44. suddenly he becomes the most interesting subject

45. you don’t get enough of him eventhough you see each other almost everyday

46. his opinions really matters to you

47. you would turn him everytime you are sad

48. you wanna hug him and don’t want to let him go

49. you wanna marry him

50. you wanna share your lives with him until you die

relationship will only work if there is give and take…stop giving all the time or taking all the time.

take the day off...

I got this email from a friend about food as medicine.

If you often have headache, eat plenty of fish as fish oil helps prevent headaches, also good for those who have arthritis. Fish has omega oils which is good for our immune system.

If you have asthma, eat onions because onions help ease constriction of bronchial tubes.

If you have upset stomach, eat bananas and ginger as bananas will settle an upset stomach and ginger will cure morning sickness and nausea.

For girls who have premenstrual syndrome, eat cornflakes which able to reduce depression, anxiety and fatigue.

For those who despise garlic like I used to, it is actually good for cold and it lowers cholesterol!

Did you know that kiwi has twice vitamin C content that of an orange? (yeay me for liking kiwi than orange).

Strawberry has the highest antioxidant power among major fruits and protects the body from cancer causing.

The top fruits with most vitamin C are guava and papaya. Papaya is rich in carotene which is good for eyes also for gas and indigestion. I remember mama told me that I have indigestion because I don’t eat much needed papayas.LOL…

You don’t need to buy those expensive supplements (well, maybe you need to because people nowadays lead a very busy life). But, Allah SWT created the things that we can eat and these things are the original medicine. People in the old days really appreciate them as they don’t have supplement like we have now. Honestly, nowadays people get sick easily because they are too many fast food/junk food that they can munch on because they don’t have the time to have a home cook meal which is much much healthier. Plus, as people are busy leading the good life, they did not realize that they somehow endanger mother earth which causes pollution which in return endangers their lives. As the saying goes, what you give, you get back whether what you give is good or bad. In addition, people nowadays are stress with their hectic life that they turn to cigarette and alcohol which are the quickest way to distress but endanger their lives. I mean, you work hard for all that money to have good life, and when you are stress, you use that hard-earned money to buy alcohol and cigarette that will shorten your life. What I don’t get is, if people work hard to have good life, work hard to have everything that they could enjoy but in the end actually they work hard to ruin their lives. Man, as you get older, you become stupider. No offense, I’m just curious. I you feel offended, you shouldn’t read this, but then, think again.

Live a good life although it is not glamorous and lavish like you dream it would be, be thankful of what you have, same goes to me.

me and my friends

A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift.

A friend is someone we treasure for our friendship is a gift.

A friend is someone who fills our lives with beauty, joy and grace.

And makes the world we live in a better and happier place.

Jean Kyler McManus

A friend is someone we know regardless how long, whether it is just yesterday or since kindergarten. A friend is someone that we can rely on when we feel helpless, someone that lend their shoulder for us to cry on and a good listener who really listen.

It is better to have one special good friend that we know we can count on rather than have many friends who we do not know whether we can count on them.

We started having friends since we are in school. We may have someone who we share our lunch together, we play together, sit together in class, share secrets and so on. At that time, we really cherish and appreciate our friend more than we did now. I remember begging mama to buy a present for a friend at school. It was the first time I gave someone a present. It was a music box and it is not expensive but we were children at that time and mothers could not let us buy unnecessary things. I knew that she wanted one because after school, she kept looking at a pink music box that has ballerina twirling in it. I wanted that music box too, when we bought the music box, I had thoughts that maybe I don’t have to give it to her and keep it to myself…but in the end, I gave it to her on her birthday. I received a hug in return that I still remember even though it was a long time ago. Better a memorable hug that I still remember than a music box that will get broken later.yeay me!

I used to have people who hate me when I was in primary school. It was a silly misunderstanding saying that I was stealing her boyfriend, hence I was bestow with a nickname “perampas”. I received letter almost everyday and I usually ignore it as I was more matured than them as I got my period sooner than they did at the age of 9.yes..NINE years old. Later, me and that girl ended up being best friend and only got separated because we went to different middle school. How funny I ended up being good friends with people that other people don’t like. They kept asking me “why did you befriends with her?” and I reply “umm…why can’t i?” later, I realize that my friends distance themselves from me because I become good friends with people that they don’t like. But then, I saw it in a good way because when they separate themselves from me, I realize that Allah SWT has open my eyes and let me see who are my real friends and who are pretending to be one. I ended up having good friends that I still keep in touch till now.yeay me!

But, not all of my good friends I could rely on. I remember I have this one friend who kept boasting telling me that her father is a “Datuk”, that she has several house, have a huge cat house at the back of the back of her house, her brothers and sisters are engineer, doctor and a lawyer. I believed her but later found out that she is an only child, both her parents are quite old, her father is an “imam” and her mother is a housewife. They do not have a huge cat house in their backyard. I was on my way home, riding on a bus and I saw her walking towards a rather not so glamorous house as what she told me. Later, a friend who attended the same kindergarten spill the truth with a back up from another friend who is her neighbor. I was deeply angry and wanted to confront her the next day. But when I got to school, I changed my mind thinking that maybe that is the way she pictured her life and the life that she wanted. I just go on with her lies. At the end of school days, I tell her that I knew about her lies long ago and she denies them profusely. I told her, it’s okay and I still be her friend. She just cries and say sorry. I lost contact with her and someone told me that she has move and married. I still remember her face. She got freckles on her face that makes her look cute and really fair skin.

I lost contact with friends and gain new ones but the new ones will never replace the old ones because they are unique in their own way. CHEERS TO FRIENDSHIP!

Sincerely.

fly me to the moon by julie london

one of my favourite song



Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On a-Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

a summary of my love life

Everyone will have their own idea of perfect guy/girl. Maybe the guy must be tall, good looking, funny...and the girl must have beautiful eyes, fair skin and understanding...different people have different type of dream guy or girl. I too have my own idea of a dream guy..he must have good sense of humour, extremely romantic, neither too dark nor fair etc...but then i learned that Allah SWT will give us not the soulmate that we desire, but what we need to complete each other.

I am a hopeless romantic and I realize that I could do unthinkable romantic stuff when I'm in love. Either in words or the way I act. I have been told that I have ways that able to make guy's heart melt easily. I dont know what I did but it just comes naturally. One of my talent, I guess? ^_^

FYI, I have been involve with quite a number of relationships. With different type of guys with different way of thinking and ways they do stuff. Although I've been through several relationships, I just dont feel that I'm in love, I mean really2 in love. In other words, i do not fall in love easily. Of course, I would show the love for the opposite sex, but it is actually not the one that I was hoping it would be. No, I dont feel like I toyed with their or MY feelings, but it is just my way to convince myself that my love is real or to train myself to love them unconditionally. But it always turn out that I will try to love them under certain conditions. I feel ashamed of myself when once I love a guy out of pity..I will not elaborate on that.

Maybe I should stop looking for romantic love that I want and need and just accepting the love that I need.

p/s: suddenly thought of my love life and have to write this down...

the last day at X18A

woke up at 5.44 am with laptop still on..

last time i remember,azma my housemate was in my room and we chat for awhile until i fall asleep...i was tired as the day before i didnt sleep,studying for intersession final exam and move out everything in the current house that i rent to the new house,not far from here.still at Pusat Komersial seksyen 7,different building,different floor.

everything were still unpack,moving in/out is tiresome!how the nomads live???(konon2 nk paint one corner in different colour,azma said,"duduk satu semester je kot..."ngengadenye sy)...

btw,buah hati sy nk gerak ke Bangi for few days...im going back to JB at 3pm today.

lepas ni susah sgt2 nak jumpe.we have our own commitment...

dlm hati:

kalau dia "nak seribu daya"...teruskan.kalau dia "nak seribu dalih"...moving on.

bye X18A,too much sweet memories to let you go.but you are too expensive now and i no longer could afford you.besides,i got better deal with awesome price...you always a darling~

(kalau la rumah ni faham...haha)

segannye

nak post...tp sogan..tp..nak post jugak..

sebab~

nak dia tahu...lgpun,blog ni kan mcm diary sy yg not so secret..

sy text dia:

1.awk manjakn sy

2.awk selalu wat sy tsenyum

3.awk sbr dgn karenah sy

4.awk bole time sy seadanya

5.lalala~

6.lalala~

7.lalala~

8.lalala~

9.lalala~

10.awk wat sy jatuh cinta...

sy bole listkn 1001 sbb knp sy suka n syg awk..awk buah hati sy...

dia bls:

hehe awk nie.mcm2 la..

muke sy bila bca msg dia..

^_^

hihi~

p/s:lalala~ adela rahsia..la la la~

intersession - m.e & distraction

examination for intersession

COURSE: ECO556 (managerial economics)

DATE: June 21

TIME: 2.15-5.15pm

VENUE: BM403

All the best Jihan~

off to JB...June 22,at 3pm.yes!

missing someone badly...everyday,every second...i igt u dlm doa i,my buah hati B...

"perfect" getaway?

first time im writing an entry via mobile phone.i cant go back to sleep...smiling with meaning.

the song...somewhere only we know...
Hope this will last...amin.

nisa's wedding

the wedding of nisa and abidin

date: june 12

venue: bride's house,rembau

theme:white,gold

attended by:me,saiful,ida,athirah,hazwan,farah

trip:

from shah alam - kajang - melaka - rembau

before attending the wedding,we stop at mahkota parade for a quick karaoke...(klau jumpe,msti nk karaoke..da jd kemestian)

what i will remember most:
nisa's smiles,her pinkiest lips and....

saif wearing kopiah...

a week of unfortunate events

this week tops all the weeks that i ranked sucks..

you wanna know why it sucks??

if you dont want to,please leave the page.

it was my cousin's wedding on june6th (sunday).it was a wonderful day with all the relatives "turun padang" lend a hand to make this wedding a success.when it's time to get back home to JB..i was in the car with my parents only cuz my other 3 siblings were going on the other car and i told them that i want to go back to shah alam that night as i have class on monday morning which i cant afford to miss because if i missed one..i need a hell lot of time to catch up.mama said no because she worried of my safety.so i went back the next day which is monday after zohor.

i arrive at terminal larkin,JB at about 1:20pm because abah was on his lunch break so he could send me off.i ask for 2:30pm trip to shah alam and the seller said i have to come to the counter at pukul dua setengah so that she could write down the bus' license plat number.i said okay and off to McD for a big mac and wonder around the shops there.i arrive at the counter at 2:30pm and she said "sorry dik,bas da lepas..adik lambat sgt.."

i could not believe what she just told me..she said "adik kena naik bas pukul 3"..i replied "awk ckp sy kena dtg pukul dua setengah..sy dtg on time tau"...dia dgn selamba replied "bas tu lepas awal...sorry ehh"

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ACTUALLY FOR YOU READERS INFO,BUS TRIP TO SHAH ALAM AT 2 IS ALMOST NEVER EXIST...I WAS DELIGHTED WHEN I ASK FOR 2:30PM AND SHE SAID "ADA"...BUT THEN,THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED..COME ON LA!NAK TIPU AGAK2 LA...GUA BKN BDK TADIKA...(sila baca dlm nada yg sgt pissed off)

so,i waited for another half an hour for another bus like she (stupid idiot woman) promised me..the bus was okay..i waited for someone so that i could ask whether is it the right bus..there were 3 older men.the 2 men were giving instruction to another old man on which gear to use and which road to take to selangor...(dlm hati...giler pe..bru nk belajar bwk bas..biar betul ni..) i quickly ring abah and he said.."kakak beli tiket lain..." after all that,and i needed to bought another tiket?? (ohh...lupe plak,atuk aku ade kilang cop duit la kn)....i know if i ask for my money back,they wont let me have it...a.k.a malas nk berdiskusi dgn org2 mindless idiot..yg cuma nmpk profit tp etika n budi bahasa cmpk kat longkang...mmg x halal!

i board the bus anyway,thinking..board je..bagus jugak...so,that i could story what happened actually to the other passengers..so they could boycott the damn company..a girl came in,check my ticket and hand me a new one.on the ticket,it stated waktu berlepas-3:30 petang...i was pissed off once again..i ask her.."tumpang tanya,bas ni sebenarnya gerak pukul tiga ke,tiga setengah??"(i ask nicely to the nampak baik girl)..she looked taken aback and with annoying tone she said "bas ni mmgla sepatutnya gerak pukul tiga,tp kiteorg set pukul tiga setengah sbb klau bole nk bas ni full.."

MMG FULL...BLOODY FOOL!

unbloodyliveable!!

i ask her again..."seat sy dah ada org..." she said... "duduk je mana2..." dgn nada annoyingnye..sumpah girl ni muka mmg mintak pelempang! so i sat,settled..siap plan what to do once smpai shah alam until the same MORON (the girl la...) approach me and said... "bole duduk dpn x?seat ni da ade org.." mmg mcm CHIP***! i said "saya da duduk sini dulu" she replied "tmpt ni da ade org..." so i sat on the only empty seat available at the front......damn! the seat cannot be adjusted properly...and when we arrive somewhere to fetch other passengers..i ask the driver if i could change place since there are 3 empty seats at the far end of the bus...

FINALLY SETTLED..(dalam hati sumpah2 mereka yg mmg mengambil kesempatan thdp pengguna...adil ke mcm ni??how dumb can they be running a business like this?)

**********

i usually board transnasional but the trip time is limit.i cant wait that long...i prefer transnasional cuz the ticket is printed so seller x bole memandai2 buat adjustment...

i thought transnasional is safe until...

my housemate told me that her friend bought ticket to kluang via transnasional,the bus suppose to take off at 11pm.but then her friend decided to change the time to 7:30pm because she wanted to go back early..at the counter,the seller said that actually trip to kluang at 11pm is not available any longer...(nasib baik dia tukar masa...kalau x,nganga je la...) the seller ask with who she bought the ticket and said the seller responsible maybe X UPDATE SISTEM..

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

habis tu,org lain yg beli tiket ke kluang pukul 11pm tu mcm mane??mmg bangang la....mcm ni punya keje pun ade ke?dia igt kita xde keje lain nk ulang-alik terminal...kuar duit byk2 beli tiket mcm beli tiket loteri ke??

something like this..cant go on..SERIOUSLY.

mana pihak berkuasa?mana keadilan?

*********

i went to class as usual on tuesday,the next day...

loads of things to catch up...lecturer terlebih rajin,belajar lebih2 pulak...mmg menyesal x pegi kelas isnin tu...tp ikut ckp mama...keselamatan penting.lgpun nnt mama risau..kesian mama.

THEN,

on wednesday....

at 2 am..i received a message from a chicken in a man's suit that he cannot go on with our relationship cuz he said that i dont understand him..

my ass!!

all he did is gave a stupid lame excuses to ditch me...he said i dont understand him..well,did he understand me,at all!!

I'VE TRIED SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND HIM BUT WHENEVER I TRIED,HE SHUT ME OFF!HE FAILS TO SEE THAT ALL THIS WHILE WHAT I WAS TRYING SO HARD TO DO IS TO UNDERSTAND HIM...

my conclusion...he is disable person,

has eyes but cant see

has brain but cant think

poor him..(NOT!)

ASTALAVISTA MORON!U GOT A SERIOUS INCURABLE ILLNESS!

**********

there you have it,a series of unfortunate events..

but im thankful that from all these i learn to be smarter and more careful.

alhamdullilah..HE open my eyes.

thank you ALLAH...

-END-

cousin's wedding

dua hati jadi satu
everlasting love

venue:bride's home,batu pahat
time:nikah on june5th,wedding reception on june6th

theme:green
food:kambing,lembu,ayam,bubur caca,assorted fruits n kuih-muih,rojak petis

wedding is simple n sweet..nice one.cant wait for the next venue in ampang.

study breaks

study breaks for awhile for 4 days,that is until june6th.

balik kampung for cousin's wedding.
gonna go crazy snapping photos..

adam the musical