a poem about us

I am full of emotions today, I can’t really do anything…as I scribble his name on a piece of paper, I didn’t realize I let down a tear. Somehow I manage to compose a poem, the story of us so far and I hope our story will never end.

August is when we meet again

In a funny way

I have a new friend

To light up my day

September was full of stories

Of bitter and sweet

That washes away my worries

Of promises to meet

October came with challenges

With trick and treats

But nothing ever change

Even if you’re far than eyes could meet

Now November almost gone

But of you I still fond

The thought of losing you make me shudder

As I sense you now grow colder

December is coming near

How I wish I have you here

To brush away my tear

Make me believe and show no fear

Believe in the love, for you will always be my dear

fb games that im addicted to

grumpy vs happy

Things that make me light up:

Chocolate
Playful cat
Happy ending
Pleasant surprise
Videos of cute baby
Breakfast with loved ones
Reminiscing sweet memories
When someone tell me that they love me
Random people who smile sincerely at me
Finally completing something either chores, projects

Things that get on my nerves:

Moody people

Liars and cheaters

People who cut in line

Signs in the back of the car

People who put others down

Long repeating commercial breaks

Shop assistants who do not assist

Know-it-all when actually they don’t have a clue

Things that are not what they seem as advertised

Email spam telling you won a lottery/inherited something

longing

Cheering up and try not to think about it too much... I can't focus on anything.

this is me in current state

this is what i wish for

images credit to dashsharon.com

my take on black pepper beef stir fry

Sorry no picture, I refuse to post a bad picture of the dish as I only use the camera on my handphone.

Ingredients:

Beef fillet - I slice the beef into thin strips, I like it this way because they will cook faster and easier to chew

2-3 cloves of garlic - minced

Cili padi - minced. Apparently, in English it's called bird's eye chilli, the amount of cili padi used is entirely up to you.

A bit of ginger - minced

1 onion - chopped into rings

Soy sauce

Oyster sauce

About 1 tbs of ground black pepper

1/2 cup of water

Salt to taste

You can also add in veggies, such as bell pepper/snow pea

Method:

Heat wok with medium heat, toss in minced garlic, ginger and cili padi. Cook them for awhile.

Toss in the beef, add in oil if necessary. Pour some water so that the beef is moist and cook until the water become almost dry.

Add ground black pepper, 1-2 tbs of oyster sauce, a bit soy sauce and salt.

Lastly, toss in onion rings and your choice of veggies.

love confession in stardust

I watched Stardust for 5 times now, it's my kind of movie. The best part is when Yvaine (Claire Danes) confess her love to Tristan (Charlie Cox) when he was turn to mouse by a witch who captured his mother. Here is her monologue about love and her love confession:

her diary his diary

So..today I had a quick chat on YM with papa bear. We seldom talk and always find ways to get in touch. I thought since we're in LDR, communication is crucial. At one point in our quick chat, he blurted how one of his female friend has a scandal with someone living in my neighbourhood. He added, his friend once asked if he would like to have a casual relationship with her. My response was, if he did or consider having a relationship with her behind my back, I won't confront him or listen to his explanation, I would just disappear from his life without trace and he won't ever hear one single news about me. I went on and on and told him what I would do and he just kept quiet. Suddenly, he gave me this link and I instantly felt embarrassed.

Kuda Kepang & Barongan

I had a chance to witness the most fascinating, breath-taking, out of this world performance of kuda kepang.

Kuda Kepang is a horse trance dance from Jawa, Indonesia. It is said that it was created by the Wali Songo in spreading the religion of Islam in Indonesian island of Jawa for the dance dramatizes tales of holy wars won for Islam. The dancers are usually all men, they sits astride a mock horse and re-enact the battles according to the beat of percussion ensemble consisting of mainly drums, gongs, bonang and angklung. A dancer known as Danyang will take the lead by directing the other dancers using a whip. It is believed that the dance have strong links to the spirit world. The mock horse is said to harbour spirits which have to be appeased in a pre-dance ceremony.

My encounter with a loser who has the biggest ego but the tiniest brain

Yesterday I had a disturbing chat with a stranger in facebook. I was chatting with my boyfriend on YM while playing Sims Social, and suddenly this person D.N…I don’t know if that even his real name, said hi and start asking questions like he wanted to get to know me. He thinks it is okay to skip the introduction part and so sure that I’m interested to get to know him since it was in facebook where you get to know people. He started asking me some personal questions that I really am not comfortable about. Judging from his questions, he probably went through my info page and asks if I already got a job. I was thinking that maybe he wanted to offer me a job but when I ask why he wanted to know he said, “I just want to know”. I didn’t really want to share something that isn’t certain because I’m still in line with other candidates for the second interview so I said “Well, I don’t think I want to share that information with you (I put a smiley face so that he understands it)”…suddenly he was pissed and said there is no reason for me to keep it a secret and he said that with that kind of attitude, I wouldn’t go far in any job. I replied why should I tell you because I want to keep it a secret and if I tell you where I applied the job can you reassure that I get that job? I don’t tell people about this why should I tell you, a complete stranger and why the hell you want to be pissed about it? He was not satisfied and added that not all degree graduates are smart and just because I got a degree doesn’t mean that I’m not stupid. You barely know me and you call me stupid, I was pissed but I keep myself compose because I think maybe he just had a rough day or pitiful life and he was envy of how I accomplished something in my life and he does not so he pick a random victim so that he can act all superior and ticks other people to reassure he was not the only one who is miserable in this world. I said to myself, who the hell is this maniac who claims that he was right and got all the wisdom from experience and I’m a fresh meat who still got a lot to learn which I totally agree and he is in the right place to give me advices since he was smarter because he got a lot experience and all I got is a piece of degree??? He claimed that he doesn’t get a chance to further study in any university so what right he has saying I’m stupid? Clearly he doesn’t know how much a student has to endure to get a degree? He talks as in my 18 years effort to get a degree is nothing and simply come into conclusion that I’m stupid? He has no right to say that because he doesn’t even know me and doesn’t he realize calling people stupid is belittling Allah SWT works? He doesn’t pay for my courses and did not experience the hardwork that I put into, does that make him able to say those hurtful things to people he barely knows? He is actually belittle the effort of every student who work hard and sacrifice a lot so that he can satisfy his pathetic ego! He said that I shouldn’t be angry when he calls me stupid because he was right, because he has more experience than I do. I then ask if I call you stupid, would you be angry? When I called him stupid, he was crazily angry and said that I should repent and he pitied me for studying so far but has little brain. I tell you, what my lecturer said…having lots of experience doesn’t make you smart, when older people like your parents tell you what to do and don’t do things they don’t like you to is simply because they made more mistakes and have become stupid first to become smart about things later. That’s why they don’t want you to repeat the same mistakes they did because they have experience the outcomes. Calling people stupid doesn’t make you smart, it shows how stupid you are because you saying things you don’t even know and you say it to make you look smart, but really, you don’t.

Whoever wants to read our chats, I will gladly email it to you…at least you learn how to avoid people like that…and I’m so agree that the world will be a much better place if there are no people who think they are smart and say wrong things and resulted to disaster. I personally think this type of people is the one who starts the wars. They want to show how superior they are by stepping other people and ruin other people’s lives. Shame on you and please grow up before you advising people.

Do you know the difference between education and experience? Education is when you read the fine print; experience is what you get when you don't.
-Pete Seeger

muslims fashion that I found cool but afraid to try

Bright colour looks fun and looks like you are promoting yourself for people to look at you. A muslimah is encourage to be modest not attracting people. Clothes like long skirt and tight leggings look fashionable. Pair a really loose blouse with a tight leggings sure look cool but it's body-hugging which is not encourage. Plus, long skirt looks nice with long sleeve tee tuck in but the silhouette of your buttocks is showing. Loose blouse is encourage when it covers the rear end. You look like a doll wearing short dress ballerina-like skirt...of course you have to wear inner but inner is body-hugging and I think the point of putting on inner is so that you are able to wear sheer material so that people cannot see your body parts. Leather jacket looks nice if its body-hugging and not baggy. I sure loves muslimah fashion these days but I need to be careful which to follow and which not, not that I'm a fashion follower..I wear what I feel comfortable with, which I also need to be careful of.

Like my cousin said, I don't want to look hot now, because I'm afraid I will feel hot hereafter..

my job interview experience

Great interviews come from hardwork. I believe everyone can ace job interview if they did their homework; this includes company's profile and background, understanding of job requirements, facts and current issues about the company, etc...

For today interview, I did a thorough check on the company and its job requirement. I also read about some useful tips on what should or what not before, during and after the interview session. I even practice on what to say to my potential employer on how to promote myself and make myself employable. Among many questions ask is "tell me about yourself". It is the most ancient but almost a must in every interview meeting. I came upon a tip on how to tackle this sort of question. It's kinda a trick question, although it is not specific...you can't go randomly talking about your life. Potential employer didn't really ask about your hobbies, relationship status and how you spend your free time. They really want to hear about your previous employment (if any), work/academic achievements, what you want to get out of the job you are currently applying, your strengths...in short, you have to promote yourself and tell the employer why you are the best candidate for the job.