my 2011 review

Alhamdulillah 2011 is almost over. I can’t believe I got through this year safely.LOL.

2011 left with bittersweet memories.

This is the year, which I lose someone whom I thought would be my best friend forever and turned out she’s a backstabber with multiple masks only to hide her true awful self. I really ought to kick myself for believing in her and almost ignore my mom’s advice about getting too attached to her. It started small then it turned out big. If only there’s a bigger sign in the beginning. She played me well and for that I can’t forgive her. She’s out of my life and for that ALHAMDULILLAH. I’m through, don’t want to think of her or talk about her or see her and I banned her forever. Yet, I feel obligated telling closest people that the she and I share relationship with. I feel sorry for those who haven’t been played by her. But then again, I think it’s not my place. I don’t want to be in the same level as her. She is low enough. Sometimes I feel that she chose to stab me in the back because I’m an easy target. She knew I love her and our friendship that she took the chance and left me feeling dumb. Early 2011 started awful but the awfulness gradually subsides

Enough about her already, this post is not about her…it’s my review of the year 2011.

Apart from my unlucky and shi*ty encounter early this year, miraculously I forget about that fateful incident because I’m looking forward (not really) to finish my studies and officially become an undergraduate finally. All those years, from kindergarten reading ABC and counting 123 till I got to stand in front of my family and friends receiving my degree in a ceremonious event last October. It was overwhelming and I still can feel the excitement and the sugar rush. Everyone was like “this is it…finally”. Mother was thrilled and fussing on my robe and graduation cap and Father was all proud snapping pictures with his DSLR. When it came to my turn to receive the scroll from the Chancellor, I let out a big sigh and I feel light and as I walk towards him I feel like I was walking on cloud almost flying. I was beaming and I can’t stop smiling but I didn’t cry like I’m expected to because I’m too excited to bother about crying and although it seems like this journey has ended, I feel like there are still time to take it all the way. Receiving my degree doesn’t feel like an obligation, it is more like a satisfaction of achieving something. Now I’m on my way embarking on a new journey of working life. Though I received a few job offers but I’m still looking. I don’t think being picky is wrong although it is time consuming, but I want what is best for myself and I don’t want to feel dreadful doing the job and forcing myself to do something I don’t like. So far, my parents are worried and we’re not on the same page about my plan but for once, I’m sticking to it without giving in to parents’ preferences. I hope I get the job that pays well and makes me happy. If not, there is always teaching position. 0__0

Talking about being happy, I am currently happily in a loving relationship with a guy whom I respect and admire. He totally dotes on me and we have a lot of things in common. We share the same point of view most of the times, and he always has ways to cheer me up. He gives advices in gentle tone but firm manner, we laugh at each other’s jokes, sometimes finish each other’s sentence. Although we don’t hate the same thing like he absolutely loves spicy food and coffee and I detest spicy food and prefer tea but the rest is fine. I have this feeling that this relationship will be a long one, because I feel and I know that I can depend on him because he is wise and patient and I am childish and carefree, it’s like we complete each other. My heart told me to stick to this man because something good will happen one day. I’m not sharing anything more about me and him because our story is only for us and not for sharing.

In conclusion, happy memories beat bad memory. 2011 has been kind to me and I will never forget the experiences I have gained which taught me to be careful, to think wisely before act, to cherish the people around you, to be thankful for what you have, to not take things for granted and to believe if you are patient and kind, Allah swt will reward you at the end of the day.